#71

时间：20170419 1656

越是长大越会觉得人与人之间的交际越来越复杂，大概是可以很轻易搞定的事情，居然要绕了一大圈都还没办法搞定，甚至要越惹越烈。

我觉得degree的开始就是挑战的开始。功课的繁忙，我大概可以很努力的抽出时间应付功课应付考试绝对不成问题，但是心境的转变呢？当我长大了，世界和我一直以来所想象的样子已经慢慢出轨了。一直以为该是这样的世界变成了不是我所想象的样子。从愤怒，难过，失望到最后转变至无奈。这个社会，有太多太多的问题了。随着负能量的散播，其实人际关系为人处事的态度真的变得和以前不一样。很多时候我觉得能和交心的人相处是多么地可贵，你可以不用担心下一秒对方会不会拿着刀子往你心脏捅下去，因为你知道对方会为你着想，不会让你失望。可是那些不是交心的人呢？到底是用什么样的目光看待你。在我很用心付出对待这段感情的时候，你又是用怎么样的目光看待我。真心地觉得我好，还是觉得我是一个笑话。你觉得无聊，所以滥用我真心？

不管是家人，朋友或者以后我有男女朋友，我希望我们的相处真心地，能很坦诚一切事情的。一段好的关系，就是相处得舒服，无需设下太多的防备心不是吗？为什么很多时候，我居然会觉得和你相处我会很累。我甚至会怀疑，你到底哪句是真话哪句是假话。真的不要一直想着要怎样骗人，因为你能骗到的都是相信你的人。我啊，最不能接受就是人家的欺骗。在我知道你骗我的时候，那种失望的感觉是多么地无助。除了哭，我却不知道能做什么，甚至哭了也无济于事。

曾经有一次和yokelyn还有紫欣出去的时候，我们居然谈心了。谈了很久，整个聊天过程很舒服，大家都很诚实坦诚自己的想法。那天过后，自己开车回家，开车的路上我居然哭了。哭不是因为难过，哭是因为我把我一直以来设法隐瞒的想法给说出来，终于释放了，终于有人愿意听我倾诉愿意懂我。我哭，是因为我觉得很感恩，很幸运生命中有这么样的人出现在我的生活里。

生活好累，好多复杂的人，可是让我坚持下去，就是那些愿意撑住我的人。现在我还是很累，可是我可以应付的。

#基于面子书不是一个适合散发负能量的地方，我就选择在没有人看到的部落格发泄。:')

#70

我做任何事情都没有坚持过，除了吃喝玩乐这些事。
我不能保证我现在回来了，会不会定时回来这里，我决定这次我不想给自己设限，等自己想发表自己的心情的时候，我自然会回来。有一股冲动告诉我，得时时刻刻把自己的心情记录下来，所以我选择来了这里。熟悉我的人都知道我都在混Twitter，可是twitter的坏处就是你很难翻阅过去你写过的东西，所以我还是觉得有什么很深的感触还是事情，我还是得来这里发表。
就像以前我把暗恋学长的心情都在部落格写下，所以现在我还记得我曾经那么炽热地喜欢一个人。如果没有部落格，或许那些喜欢他的感受我到现在真的想不起来了。坦白说过了16/17岁的那段日子，那些感触我并没有很深刻的印象了，因为我逐渐远离部落格，都在混ig twitter。感谢fb每天都帮我翻阅我过去的回忆，提醒我我曾经干过什么事情，我和谁又有怎样的一段回忆。
不是twitter不可靠，只是像我这样罗里罗嗦的人，还是部落格适合我。我可以在一个帖文，把我当下所有感触一次过写下来。如果在twitter，我会有很多千千万万个帖文，我怕我的追随者嫌我罗嗦。也对啦，我罗嗦。

应该都没有人在阅读部落格了，没关系，我就自己当自己的读者。至少，我以后老了我知道我曾经拥有过的感触。

#69

3/1/2016

因为饶小姐说很久没有看到我，说想念我了(她很少说这么鸡皮疙瘩的话的。)为了成全她，我们就打算一同一起吃晚餐。后来也约了表姐。基于一些理由，我们拖到差不多9点才吃得到晚餐。

本来打算到DCOVA解决了，可是10点就关店，我们就索性换到Black Kettle去吃。氛围不错，食物好吃，价钱偏贵。

非常之爱面包的表姐选了两份面包，点了一块蛋糕。其实我和她心灵相通，盯着那块蛋糕看很久。我喜欢纯粹是因为它是巧克力蛋糕，后来点了才发现里面有whisky的成分。(长大了我也比较爱酒的味道了:b) 由于我不是很钟爱面包，所以都没再吃面包。

爱巧克力爱得很高调的我为了不要一直都在喝巧克力，所以点了有巧克力成分的mocha。学到教训了，过了傍晚绝对绝对无条件不可以点咖啡喝。咖啡因不会让你精神，它只会让你胃痛，让你的胃翻云覆雨折腾到你入睡。

上面的carbonara是饶小姐点的，味道不错。下面squid ink spaghetti是姐的。(自从被朋友拉去lunarich吃过一次squid ink spaghetti,那个味道我就喜欢到现在;b) 如果你点这盘squid ink spaghetti,就不要对它的酱料有太多的期待，以为会有黑黑的ink，其实没有，只是面条是黑色的....T.T

5/1/16

还没有去工作以前表姐就说好晚上要一起出去玩，所以我们决定吃晚餐看电影。表姐很钟爱Macallum Connoisseurs 的食物，因为那里的食物真的蛮健康不会很油腻。我第一次和饶小姐去吃的时候我还因为这样而有点不习惯，太健康了啊...

坚持过了傍晚不喝咖啡，所以点了巧克力来喝。(其实我想喝冷的，可是表姐点错给我 -_-)

上面是有咖喱味的spaghetti，表姐说想吃有“食物味道”的食物就点了那盘重口味的spaghetti。下面的chicken meatball spaghetti是我点的。味道还不错，只是portion对我而言有点小。(不好意思，金牛座是名副其实的吃货 XD)

其实每次和她出来她都会带macbook。看似在很努力的做project还是什么，其实人家只是纯粹对The Sims上瘾戒不掉 ;b

她告诉我她买了《The 5th Wave》电影戏票。我们进去看了，发现不对劲，女主角迟迟未出现，而且演员说的语言都不是英语...原来表姐把《The Wave》误当成《The 5th Wave》，而且《The 5th Wave》也还未上映啊我的孩子...小确幸的是，电影还挺好看的。隔了很久没有看电影看到哭，我有为了这部而哭。我是一个典型天灾片小粉丝，总是能看到人性化的一面。

7/1/16

表姐又突然想去cafe，所以这次我们去我宿舍楼下的三脚猫咖啡馆。虽然是在我宿舍楼下，可是我没有踏入那间咖啡店过。可能是太靠近了，反而我又不想要试试那里的食物了 ;b

表姐点了salted caramel，我照例点了一杯热巧克力。饮料还不错，价钱也挺合理的。

我们也点了一份blueberry cheesecake。cheesecake太松软了，不过味道是不错的。虽然不是个cake expert，可是真的吃得出来cheesecake的cheese不够扎实啊 :b

那里的环境和气氛还不错，他们还准备了PS给顾客玩游戏。其实当时有冲动想要抓表姐去玩，可惜表姐是个游戏白痴。为了不要丢人现眼，我下次在找我的朋友一起陪我在那里玩一场tekken xD

#我的文章是变得很乏味很闷，可是为了不让自己忘记这些片刻，我还是选择记录下来了 :b 让我慢慢找回写部落格的那种港觉呗baby! XD

#68

时隔将近1年才回来有点对不起大家XD 感觉新年文是必要的，所以滚回来啦。其实去年年尾就想滚回来写博文了，只是打工读书我挪不出时间，就干脆新的一年写一篇新年文呼呼。

之所以想要回来部落格全都得感谢饶小姐，她自己想开始写博文，我又觉得其实有很多片刻需要记录，所以回来部落格记录那些重要的日子，有意义的小东西。

其实2015年对我来说是一个起伏很大的日子。

一，我开始了我人生中的第一份兼职。

老实说，我起初以为打工好棒棒，可是我记得第一天我忧郁得快死掉了。毕竟是人生第一份工作，而且还不熟悉那里的工作人员，休息什么都一个人真的好寂寞。我还记得当时我真的快哭了，我回到家还whatsapp妹妹我的感想。可是一下子就熬过了这个忧郁的时期，第二个星期完全就适应了。可是基于课业的因素，我的兼职只到3月份。后来9月份经理播电给我要我回去帮忙，当然我也答应了。(当时在想反正我需要钱，就回去兼职吧XD) 做着做着就做到现在了。适应了打工的日子，和那里的推销员也混得很快乐，所以过程我是有在享受的。也很庆幸我遇到两个很好的同事，经常打包好吃的给我，怎么能不喜欢呢 xD

二，爷爷的离开。

其实爷爷的离开一点都不突然，爷爷每天都在慢慢的变老。农历新年的那段期间真的很衰弱，连行动都不能自如。很多人都以为爷爷很快就会离开，所以农历新年的气氛很凝重，很难快乐起来。所幸爷爷的意志力坚强，撑到3月尾。其实那天爷爷入院那么精神爽朗早就是个征兆，只是我们都没有发觉。和死神拼搏了4/5天，终于爷爷累了，想回家。到了家，他就离开了。我第一亲眼见证死亡，我们人是多么的渺小啊。在那一刹那，他没有力气去呼吸了，呼吸渐渐变缓，最后停止。身边的人都哭惨了，因为陪伴我们那么久的爷爷离开了。可是我相信，爷爷在那里过得很快乐，一定很快乐，因为我们大家也都很快乐很平安。

三，Advanced Birthday Surprise。

这个有吓到我其实。当天朋友们很坚持要一起出游，就我和另一个朋友负责开车。我们原本想要到某家韩国餐厅吃午餐，可是时间太早还没有营业，就随便到附近的咖啡馆喝咖啡。一起说笑拍照。当时看到朋友拿着一个切蛋糕的刀，可是我当时压根儿都没在想是要拿来切蛋糕。忽然蛋糕就出现在我眼前使我措手不及 HAHAHAHAHA 其实他们很有心思，还特地买我最爱的巧克力，然后请我吃一餐HUHUHU那天很快乐，那么多人都在细心的计划要怎么给我惊喜。谢谢你们。

四，第一次车祸。

这个很好笑，事发在我生日隔天。某堂课突然取消，我们决定要去吃午餐。去吃午餐的路上就这样被别人家撞了-_- 我还记得被撞的那一刻我踩油就走，没有停下来。(因为是个roundabout，我停在那里肯定大塞车。)然后一路上狂飙粗话狂飙泪 HAHAHAHA 可是一吃到午餐那些难过的心情通通不见 XD 也幸好那个车主没有去报案，因为我们有去警局问那个车主有没有报案，他没有。我们为了省下麻烦我们也不打算报案。可是那次之后我在roundabout都会特别小心。驾车真的真的真的要小心!!!

五，第一次在海边BBQ喝酒。

其实BBQ不是第一次，但在海边还真的是第一次。那晚非常之奇葩，好多人喝醉，好多死尸在海滩-_- 感谢我老妈子把我生出来是个能喝酒的体质，所以我也没有在朋友面前丢脸 XD 在海边BBQ是挺享受的，吹海风玩海水。所以后来映珊的生日我们也照旧在海边BBQ，可惜当天天空不作美，下雨了 -_- 

六，游台湾!

这真的是蛮impromptu的plan。表姐她们不够人，问我要不要。其实当下我没有想法，我的想法就是爸爸允许我就去。结果爸爸完全没有阻止，反而很鼓励我去 -_- 去台湾的那段日子很享受很开心，只是可惜的我们都在台北市绕绕。台湾的风景和食物很好吃，可是要我去那里读书我貌似不能习惯啊，还是比较喜欢马来西亚的生活习惯哈哈哈。去台湾一定一定一定要大肠包小肠!!!!!!!真的好好吃啊大肠包小肠 XD 在马来西亚都找不到大肠包小肠。

七，第一次和coursemate来个trip。

奇葩吧，year 2了可是第一次trip，而且trip也只是来我家里trip也 -_- 一群将近10个人，一起游葡萄园山水温泉。那2天1夜虽然短暂可是我真心觉得很开心。我们还唱歌唱到半夜4/5点，结果隔天全部人很迟才起床啊 XD 那次过后我更加坚定毕业了一定要来一个毕业旅行，想说要去马六甲还是Langkawi玩呢 :P

八，征服了升旗山。

我们用我们的双脚征服了升旗山 HAHAHAHAHAH 其实那一次真的很累很想放弃，可是到达山顶的那一刻真的很感动。(虽然那天的风景真的烂到不能再烂-_-)幸好升旗山有缆车，不然还要走下来真的会累死你。(后来第二次去升旗山用走下来我们全部的脚都快断了-_-)结果后来就有一群爬山的buddy啦 XD 

九，走到Monkey Beach!

当然是开车到Teluk Bahang了在走去Monkey Beach。那天真的很折磨，4点多就起床去征轩的家准备那堆picnic的食物。结果一群人就拎着大包小包走10公里到达Monkey Beach。可能Monkey Beach的路段没有山路那么倾斜，所以走了10公里也不会累。到了Monkey Beach的那一刻其实很感动，因为海边真很干净很漂亮。在那边点了椰水吃自己准备的料理挺享受的。后来坐船回去Teluk Bahang吹吹海风也是很快乐啊。(重点就是一个人只需付4块钱就能坐船HOHOHO XD)

能记得的事情大概也就是这些 XD 希望我2016年能努力挪出时间把生活重要的大小事给记录下来呼呼。

#最重要的愿望还是希望年尾的烟花有个伴陪我看 HAHAHAHAHAHA

#67

这个CNY break一点都不好玩，好多功课要做 -_- 要怪就怪我这个龟毛个性，一个ssc拍video的assignment弄到好像要和那些popular youtuber 同standard 那样。没关心，至少用心做，努力过拿到的分数不会不甘心。

这次新年很特别，因为第一次全部亲戚到访，不用出去拜年了。（终于轮到我们不用出去拜年的日子了-_-）可是比起人家来拜年，我比较喜欢去人家家里拜年也 哈哈哈哈 无所谓，开心就好。表姐还是堂姐已经说好初一的主题是denim, 由于对我而言denim的选择太少，所以我的搭配也很简单，简单到真的有点可怕哈哈哈哈。等不及要和表姐堂姐们一起拍2015年第一次的ootd哈哈哈。待会儿将相机充电，随时stand by!

爷爷人逐渐老去，也开始生病了。每天都在保佑希望爷爷能够越来越强，我爷爷相信可以的!我发现人一旦老去，金钱家产也不重要，最重要的是要有家人陪伴。所以一有时间真的需要把时间留给长辈，毕竟长辈拥有的时间比我们的时间总是少的。自从开始到槟城读书后，回到家都会把时间分好来，绝对不会被朋友完全霸占，还是得把一些时间留给家人。回来的日子就那么几天，还是和家人好好相处比较实际。

明天是年初一，这是你不在的第三个春节，但愿你在那里过得不错。回想起当天的事情我仍然觉得不可思议，因为生死一瞬间，我们根本不能猜测下一秒会发生什么。我们不会执着不放下，但是会把你留在心里，每年的佳节就在心里挂念你祝福你就好。

提早预祝各位新年快乐! 农历新年的帖子也会过几天发布啦。晚安!

#66

My new semester started few weeks ago, since this is a short semester, so we have tons of assignment need to done at in short time. Luckily we have a very nice timetable for this semester. Class are usually dismiss at 12pm, so we're actually free after that! (Not really for me since I'm having my part time job.) As we had plan to have steamboat since last semester, so now we decided to have our steamboat again!

We bought our materials straightway after class. Thor, Ying Shan, my sis, a bunch of guys and me were going to Tesco to buy some frozen food and tableware. While other girls went to Farlim bought the other frozen food which can't be get in mall.

We thought we spent over RM60 on buying those materials, but when we made payment we actually need to pay for around RM40. After that those guys went to play so called "clip doll machine", and they successfully clipped some nice dolls! Although they did clip nice dolls, they were all unsuccessfully clipped rilakkuma for me -_-

We went to guys' house and started to make our steamboat. Other bunch of girls were already done prepared, so we started our steamboat once we washed our frozen food.

Jesslyn didn't join us this time, so they bought tomyam paste and made the soup tastier. All of them feel that the soup isn't good as Jesslyn's mum made but I actually think that the soup isn't bad. At first all of us wanted to order Domino's as we thought that we're not going to feel full, but we're definitely wrong! Only Kuan Seng said that his stomach still not yet open ( orz I don't know what was he talking but all of us were laughing madly.)

We were having Q&A session towards Kelvin, Yong Ming and Kuan Seng. The session was seriously laughed our ass off, we were keep asking those stupid and not underage question. (If you got what I mean yay hands up HAHAHAHA ) 

Last but not least, pictures with the gang!

9 months and more to go! Looking forward to our first anniversary yeay!

#65 New Year Resolution

I know I'm a little bit late,but never mind,wish all of you Happy New Year and have a great 2015!

Let's don't talk about what I've learnt in 2014 because I think I had write too much in my facebook,twitter,instagram or whatever social web.So set some targets this year and hit the goals will be better instead of looking back what we've done in our past.

My first target in this year is achieve 3.5 cgpa!This is my target once I had enter college and I thought it is pretty easy to achieve 3.5 cgpa,but I'm here to tell you all that I'm definitely wrong.You need to work very hard and stay focus in class to get 3.5 cgpa,but sometimes I felt sleepy and lazy to listen what lecturer really taught,so I got soso result in my 1st and 2nd semester. (I even drop my cgpa in 2nd semester *cries).

The second is achieve 50 kg before my birthday comes!I used to be a skinny girl in my past 14 years until the day I knew how to cook spaghetti.That's the time I start to gain weight.I didn't really notice I gained weight until somebody told me I looks nice because I'm getting fatter than before.My weight was around 42kg when I'm 14 years old.Then 44,46,48 and I JUST REALISED I GAINED A LOT WHEN I'M 50kg.Now I'm 55 kg which means that I actually gained 1kg in this semester break *cries.My friends told me I'm not fat but still I want to cut down the food I eat and work out very hard!

The third target is earn my very first salary in my life!I'll start my part time job on this coming Tuesday.I'm excited yet nervous,hopefully everything goes good!I'm sure that I can gain something I haven't learnt before in this job.

Last but not least,writing letters to the particular penpals for non stop in 2015!I've actually started to write letter in the past 3 months.First I registered as a member in postcrossing.com,then I found some international penpals via instagram.Jiaxin told me that is hard to find a long term penpal,she had already lost contact with some penpals.Hopefully I could really find some really good long term penpals in 2015.And of course,if you wish to be my penpal you can dm as well in instagram : @y_enwei ! I'll be glad to be your penpal!

That's all for my first post in 2015.I'll keep update my blog as well!!(oh yes update my blog frequently is my 5th target in this year ;P)

#64

I'm totally exhausted after spending my 12 hours on the bridge. Zshin,Thor and me were in charge in water station 12. When we're arranging the water bottles on the table, we were like what the hell are you sure these all bottles can be finish up? We don't believe the water could be run out, and yet it run out -_-
At first few Nigerians pass by, the leader said,"The war is coming soon!" So...as his expectation,the crowded came...We started to be busy,around 3am until 7am morning, for NON STOP. You can't even spend your time on watching the sunrise -_- (Thor was saying that she wanted to take photo of sunrise and then I was like make sure you have that time HAHAHAHA)

So our job was to refill the bottles on table.The participants kept taking the bottles away, so we're busy like hell,keep refill, refill and refill. I met few of friends that I don't think I'll met. First was Wei Jian,he was the fastest among his gang HAHAHAH. I was like omg hi Wei Jian, he was so shy to say hi then he ran away. Second was Wei Yang, he was like hey you're here. Then I told him Wei Jian run away already,then he continue to run. Last was Zhi Yuan, he was so happy and talked to me for a few minutes. Then I told him you've 3 stations to go,he was like WHAT THE HELL THREE STATIONS. HAHAHAHAHA!!

I expected that I'll meet bro's friend and sis's friend but sadly I met the people out of my expectation.Whatever, can met friends on the bridge is such a happy thing.

Since I've took part as a helper this year,so next year I might join half marathon.Probably next year will be my first time be a part of runner of marathon!!What I gonna do now is train myself and get ready for next year.Make sure that I won't siasui ok liao HAHAHAHAH

#63

This weekend is my second weekend for not going back to hometown. (Screw the class replacement please.) This semester is superb boring because almost all Saturdays have class. Lecturer keep saying,"Okay class, we replace our class this Saturday!" Class,"Wtf? Are you serious?" Haih sien whatever lah, since this semester is going to end, be happy a little bit. (This also means that FINAL IS AROUND THE CORNER)

What I really excited about for this week is definitely PENANG BRIDE INTERNATIONAL MARATHON!Well I've never take part in running international marathon since my stamina is weak enough. So...this year I decided to take part....AS A HELPER HAHAHAHA ( Lol I'm not a participant ;P ) I was surprised when found that IICP is in charge of few checkpoints. I found this might be interesting so I called zshin to join me along and yes she did. Both of us feel excited and happy because this is our first time joining PBIM some more we're not participants but helper!! Will looking forward to this coming Sunday!!

Yeoh and I will accompany my sister to KL because she bought ticket to watch Hebe's concert in Bukit Jalil. I'm happy that I have quite a number of friends in KL, so they'll bring me to hunt food as well. Can't wait for the coming December too!!!

I got to prepare my slides for this coming Monday presentation, wish me luck!!

#62

Now is 0227, I supposed to lay on my comfortable bed, but now I'm wide awake just to finish up my Entrepreneurship assignment. I'm going to meet the MOST BAD DAY IN MY COLLEGE LIFE. 2 assignments due in a same day -_- Until now I still can't accept why can this thing happened in my life. *poker face

I had my ICT 20% test last night. It wasn't really hard but it isn't an easy paper.(for me, or for all students who took this test.) As usual, we plan to nominal group as well but fail to do so because sir is quite strict. Never mind, I wouldn't care the test result since I had promised to Zshin that I want to study with her after the submission of assignments.  BUT! We still have 2 presentations need to present after the submission of assignments... Whatever, I'll try my best to arrange my time to make sure that I've time to prepare for my final exam. THERE'S ONLY ONE MONTH LEFT TO FINAL EXAM!*scream

Recently,I was joining as a member of postcrossing.com. I don't get any postcard from them but I FOUND A PEN PAL THROUGH INSTARGRAM!! I'll check my mailbox 24/7 until the letter reach my house. She uploaded the letter she was sending to me on instagram.What can I say is the letter is too beautiful, even my sis said that she jealous me because I found such a creative pen pal hehehehe

Okay I should stop blogging and focus on my assignment. Good night! *kiss

#61

I've never realised that mid term break came so fast until last week all of my coursemates keep discussing on what to do on mid term break.I was like oh damn without wifi for one week I can't do my assignments and refresh twitter for million times, but dad knows me well, he applied a portable wifi for us as our home don't have wifi.  **million thanks to my dad mwahahahaha

So talk about how I spend my holidays. THE ONE I MUST DO IN HOLIDAYS, WATCHING DRAMA!!!!I've got Line Walker from my friend and personally downloaded Discovery Of Love. For me Line Walker is a nice drama, I won't get bored when watching it. My only comment for Discovery Of Love, Eric Moon is freaking handsome!!!! **I've watched first ep of it hahaha ;P

Felt surprised because the lil kid, Sin Yuan whatsapped me to have breakfast for the next morning but I got to fetch her from her home.So we had mamak food as our breakfast on the next morning.Then,we went to secondary school to find our ex teachers.We had great moment with Puan Hasmawati and Puan Yeoh.We talked about our life in college, our performance in secondary school, our juniors' performance and so on.I was surprisingly happy because Puan Yeoh said I become pretty as well HAHAHAHAHA.After that the lil kid follow me went home and did assignment together.I don't think we were doing assignment but wrote post card to strangers HAHAHAHA My sis joined postcrossing for a month and she said that is fun, so both of us were feeling curious and fun so we joined as member too.Hopefully can get the post cards as soon as possible.At night we were having tomyam  as our dinner, was a great night indeed.

I was told to be mama's personal driver on next day because she wanted go to Penang to have her body check in General Hospital.It was my very first time went to General Hospital,seriously to car park is hard to find  -_- Luckily got an ah ma found a place for us. So after went to hospital, we went to Gurney for shopping.Mama bought a lot of skin care for me feel happy of course kkkkk.

Today was the farewell party for form 5 students in my previous school. Khai Xian, Ling Jie and me went to school to pay a visit.Three of us had found that we're graduated from school for one year, and we felt that we're just graduated last night.Time passes, everything had changed.Watched juniors talked their graduation reflection,they said they wished to meet frequently after graduate.I used to talk that before in last year farewell party, all of us wanted to meet each other but we knew that is very hard to spend time to meet.Our sem break are not at same time and all of us stay at different area, is very hard to find a day which is suit to everybody to have a meet up.

Hahaha I've ignore my blog for quite a long time,I'll update this frequently ;P I will not label my post anymore as I think my posts are quite random and keep talking nonsense. so tqvm and bye ;P

#60

心情打從昨天開始就不好了，

發現有些事情你知道了難受得撕心肺裂，

可是你還得裝作無所謂。

很難過，是真的。

但是我會告訴你，清者自清。

我活著如果是為了取悅你，

我老早就可以去投胎了，

何必活到今天。

加油;)

#59

最近雖然都在忙著學校的課業，但心思依然很亂。

一切都很奇怪，因為每一個東西都是無形中莫名其妙發生。

然而，發生了一件我也沒有預想過的事情。

我一直都相信每件事情都會有解決的方法，

所以我會慢慢找出走出迷宮的路，

儘管迷宮很大走得很累。

但，我會解決的。

#58 我們都上了學院

其實我想像中的學院生活絕對不是現在這個樣子，絕對不是。我只是沒有想到說原來學院生活可以這麼棒。

他們是我遇到死小孩們過後，完全可以放開做自己的朋友。我可以很自然地在他們面前做我自己，這種感覺很舒服我很喜歡。

我們都是衝動的傢伙，凡是想做的事都想立馬去做。人生短短幾十年，趁現在我們還很熱血很年輕，想做的事就去做吧。只要不是壞的，都不要抗拒，立馬去做吧。就像我們想吃火鍋，結果隔天真的跑去Kelvin家來個火鍋派對。

我們一直持著work hard play hard 的精神，不管玩還是讀都在努力，這正是我想要的。（雖然我沒有很努力，不過其他人是有在努力的 :P）

真的很謝謝他們，看我test的分數不高還會安慰我怕我難過。雖然我沒有在難過，不過我會努力的。為了我們的目標，一起畢業！雖然有的不會嘴巴上安慰，可是他們小小舉動總是會讓我感動，千萬個謝謝是不夠的的。

我想很多人看我的insta一定很好奇我為何稱我自己為女神，其實我也不懂為何會莫名其妙被他們冠上女神這個名字。=_=我會成為女神其實是莫名其妙的一件事，沒人可以給你們合理的解釋哈哈哈。其實我高興的不是因為能成為你們的女神，我高興的是因為上天讓我遇見了你們。我們每個雖然都不是完美的，但是容忍彼此的不足然後繼續生活不就好了嗎？感恩。

不管生命中遇到什麼人，是好是壞，珍惜就好。好的就對他們好，把他們留在我們的身邊；不好的我們不一定要對他不好，就當他是教訓，點頭之交就好。

謝謝上天，讓我遇見了你們。

# 蠻訝異的，原來我在orientation的自我介紹讓人印象深刻-_- 

# 說好的3.6，我會努力的!!!我會用行動證明一切，一起加油!!

#57

18歲的生日沒有特意去慶祝，家人買了我最愛的巧克力蛋糕，搭配媽媽牌麵線湯和紅雞蛋，我已經很幸福了。

感謝那些祝福我的朋友們，擁有你們是我一生中最好的禮物。

越是大了越是不會想要特地慶祝生日，看著自己的歲月一點一點的流逝，一天一天的老去，我開始覺得，長大是個很殘忍的事實。雖然很殘忍，但我們卻又不能阻止它。那麼，快樂的生活下去吧，快樂的生活下去就是最好的報答。

18歲最幸運的，就是遇見那些很熱血的coursemate。

Thor姐上次忘了帶我去吃大碗麵，所以她駕車帶了我們三個等著上課的小孩去吃大碗麵。一起攤開心胸大方談起自己的事，很喜歡這種感覺，因為這樣使我們大家的距離更靠近了。

一直擔心在學院遇到的朋友會很爛，其實也還好，只是比較不三不四罷了 哈哈哈哈！

從檳城回來就被朋友wechat炸說要去看戲，看在偉慶還有紫钐要去KL的份上就和他們一起去玩了。我一直在wechat問他們到底是看什麼戲沒有人說，到場了才說是看鬼戲......人生中第一次在戲院看鬼戲，獻給了他們...

其實那部片子不會很嚇人，我是有被開頭嚇到一下然後不小心罵“媽的”哈哈哈!!結果剩下的三個女生一直遮著臉看完這部很爛的鬼片-_- (剩下就沒有被嚇到了，多麼爛-_-)

不懂哪個屁孩說要出去廣場外吃，結果外面下大雨，我們還是被逼到廣場裡解決晚餐。

每次出來自拍已經成了我們的習慣，以後雖然不能在同個地方一起努力，但也要在各自的地方為自己的目標努力加油！2個KL、3個檳城、4個吉打，一起加油！下次見面要看見更好的你們，也要看見更好自己。

哈哈哈，最溫暖的事莫過於在宿舍收到嘉俽的生日卡。我和室友都感覺很驚奇，明明前一天她才清空信箱，隔天我要求她想開來看信箱她還很肯定說裡面沒有信了，結果一打開就我的信出現哈哈哈哈！謝謝你嘉俽 :3

可愛的生日卡還有可愛的甄沅薇。

還有，母親節快樂，請繼續可愛下去，還有我會永遠愛你的，不要吃爸爸妹妹還是哥哥的醋了，我大家都一起愛哦。等我，等我畢業了我養你哦哦哦 :p

#p/s:也祝妹妹生日快樂啦，生日要考試又生病真的有點不幸運。不過姐姐會support你到底的哦 :P
#p/p/s:室友毓思也生日快樂啦！一起努力讀書，一起畢業，一起肥下去yeay!

#56

学院生活开始变得忙碌，assignment一个接着一个来，test也一个接着一个来，我开始担心了。我开始失去信心，自己到底能不能应付学院生活。

在我还未踏入学院以前，我一直都持着“学院是很自由”的想法。的确很自由，自由到你连功课不做lecturer都不会理你。可是当lecturer开始分配assignment的时候，我开始害怕了。再看看那些dead line，我更加担心。每一份assignment都和cgpa 有着紧密的关系。

答应过自己不管怎样辛苦都好都要努力挨过。每天和爸妈通电话，坚持报喜不报忧，不想让他们担心我。给自己的目标，绝对不可以不及格，不允许延毕这回事发生在我身上。

很感谢一直以来支持我的人，家人、朋友和同学，拥有你们是我最大的幸运。告诉自己，nothing is impossible！

# 真心感谢每个走进我生命里的人，是我太幸运还是太幸福，每个都对我太好了。

#55

其实我们每个人都在长大。

不是所有人都能陪我们到最后，途中一定会有人搭上和你同样的列车。你在怎么不喜欢，你也要习惯，因为这是生活。

尽管你不在这个世界上，地球依然会旋转，太阳依然会升起。其实，人类是很渺小的。

# 理智一点吧，人总该要长大的。把孩子气收在一旁，在对的时机发挥就好。

#54

两个星期的学院生活我老早就适应了，没有关系的八个人就这样聚在一起变成朋友。是什麽牵引着我们？不知道，但既然在一起了就珍惜这段感情吧。

在另一方的死小孩们也是，虽然我在外头读书了，可是我一回来还是会腾出时间来和我见面。虽然他们偶尔真的很讨人厌，可是一想到以前天天见面的一群人变成想见面都得提前安排，使得我更加珍惜我们每次相聚的日子。

最爱的还是家里的那些。虽然偶尔很长气、很凶、很无理取闹而且很变态，但这也阻止不了我继续爱你们的冲动。

# 人生从来不计较得到或失去的是多少，因为有你们就好。 :)

#53 Back!

Hey ya! 是的我闭关3个月终于都回来了 ;P 要看ns照片的话可以去Instagram看，不多可是有。很多人都把ns讲到很可怕那样其实我觉得还好，几乎每天都有时间午睡 ;P  我也不懂怎样形容，总之中ns的都不要错过，因为真的太好玩了!!!!

这两个星期还是会忙，要帮忙看店还有处理学院的东西。

所以，等等我，会回来更新的，更新更有营养的内容 ;P

#p/s SPM成绩是我满意的，你们很好奇的话可以pm问我谢谢。
#p/ss 确定读Inti Penang了，有谁和我一样吗? :P 

#52

没办法在plkn 前交上新加坡之旅的帖文了，真的不好意思 T _ T 姐没办法在加下来的三个月给大家po文，不过记得来这里帮姐除除草哦。我们三个月后见!

爱你们哦，揪咪～(吐)